Someday

I am having trouble these days...trouble keeping my motivation...trouble keeping my frustrations to a minimum...trouble keeping sane. Its definitely a challenge. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I could make sense of exactly why I feel the way I do. I mean it has been a rough summer...but summer is over. So where do I go from here?

I have never felt more stagnant in my life. I know that the world is moving all around me, but I feel like I am remaining still. Some days I can't even figure out the exact direction that I want to move. I am being pulled towards grad school, but is it for the right reasons? I don't necessarily doubt myself...just my judgment. I have doubts...but who doesn't. Its natural I suppose. What is important I guess is what I do with these doubts. I try to remind myself that this is only a phase...it is one step in the process of becoming who I eventually want to evolve into. This evolution will not be seamless....it will not be painless...but it will happen all the same.

So...each day has become a dull repetition of the last. Motivation creeps away as the minutes pass. Studying for the GRE takes all that I've got...but someday it will seem inconsequential. So I suppose through it all....here's to someday!